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there are some people.. -- .. who take things personally. .. who don't realize things about themselves. .. who don't realize things about others. .. who assume the worst. .. who make things worse for themselves. .. who don't realize they're making things worse for themselves. .. who never address the problem, bury it and end up getting consumed by it. .. who never consider another person's point of view. people that do all of the above, i'll never blame them for doing so. i don't hate them. i don't even dislike them. i can like them, even. i don't hold their behavior in disregard. and if someone thinks otherwise, it's not me who instigated it. but i'll tell you some things about myself: i don't explain myself to people unless they ask me to. i won't be guilt-tripped into saying "sorry" for doing something i don't know about or didn't do intentionally.. i don't hold grudges. even if a grudge is held against me.. i accept people as they are. and never blame them for who they are or what they think. that's me. i'm me. you're you. that's it. end of story. TIMESTAMP-- Wednesday, June 20, 2007, 01:05 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- need layout ideas.. -- i suddenly wanna eat lobster bisque. that's not so amusing to everyone here who doesn't eat seafood. and has nothing to do with why i'm blogging. anyway. i was thinking of making a layout of this awesome watercolor fanart of Griffith from Berserk but i was messing around with it in photoshop and it doesn't seem to be getting along with me.. if I could, I'd definitely (with NO question) do one of Serpico (he comes wayyyy late in the Berserk manga) but i heart him.. a whole lot.. unfortunately, because his character is so far into the series, his fanart is few and far between and the ones i've seen are great but aren't layout material.. i wish i could color in photoshop.. or color generally.. *sigh* i coulda made my own layout pic of him.. i also really wanted to do a layout of a chick since i haven't actually done that yet (aside from myself).. but.... i also don't really worship any chicks enough to have them as my layout.. i should really start admiring more women.. especially since i've recently found myself despising chauvinists. i also thought about doing a yakuza layout.. maybe of the trio or of Akio (of course).. but there hasn't been any new art that applies to me (since most of the new stuff is of characters i don't know >___<;;) and since this one is black n white, i wanted to do a colorful one next so drawings may be out of the question all together.. so right now.. i'm having thoughts of either an Invader Zim layout (if i can find good scans, screen caps, etc), a random photograph that i'll take (since I've been more and more into using my camera... especially now that i've figured out how to use the focus O___o;;) possibly of musical instruments.. or possibly a Get Backers layout. I kinda miss that series a lot.. i was thinking the Kazuki/Jubei pairing if i can find good fanart or manga scans.. okay, so i do have a lot of ideas =P oh well. *yawn* i think that's it for the night. i should get some sleepiez. TIMESTAMP-- Tuesday, March 13, 2007, 02:00 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- HAPPY NEW YEAR!! -- as in, chinese new year for those who celebrate.. it's never been a big tradition in my household but my mom always made sure to tell me not to wear polk-a-dots or buy anything on new year.. which apparently could lead to bad luck or overzealous spending for the rest of the year it's the year of the boar (or pig), which is my year! hopefully that means it'll bring me good fortune. i like to read up on astrology and actually read my horoscope daily on my google homepage.. tho i'm not one of those hardcore believers in it.. i think it's interesting when the readings are accurate and sometimes are RIGHT on the dot. here's a description of my chinese zodiac sign (WARNING! it's long..): [start description] According to customary superstition, the Pig type is usually an honest, straightforward and patient person. They are a modest, shy character who prefers to work quietly behind the scenes. When others despair, they are often there to offer support. This type of person is reserved with those they do not know too well, but as time passes and they gain confidence, those around them may discover a lively and warm-hearted person behind that mask of aloofness. Despite those born in the year of pig having a wide circle of friends and acquaintances, they have few close friends who understand them and share their inner thoughts and feelings. It is easy to put trust in pig type; they won't let you down and will never even attempt to do so. Such people simply want to do everything right according to social norms. Also according to customary superstition, that these people are not vengeful creatures. If someone tries to take advantage of them, the pig type tend to withdraw to reflect on the problem and protect themselves. All they need in such situations is a little time to find a constructive way to respond. The people of the pig type are conservative creatures of habit. They dislike being made to travel too far from familiar surroundings, unless it is a trip to the countryside. They love nature and are never happier than when they are out somewhere, far from the city. There is a tolerant and peaceful side to the character of Pig types. Such people are never afraid to allow others their freedom of expression; they do not want to cause arguments and if there is any way to avoid arguing, they will probably take this option. They are not weak, however, and if the situation forces them to fight these people will rise to the occasion, whether it is to defend themselves or those close to them. People of the Boar type are the most admired by others. [/end description] this is a MUCH more accurate description of my personality than the modern western zodiac portrays capricorns.. the only inaccuracy is claiming i don't like traveling.. i LOVE new places, people and experiences.. and also not liking the city is wrong.. that's a big no-no lol.. i love busy cities that, in combination with my element (i'm a WATER boar): In Chinese Taoist thought, water is representative of intelligence and wisdom; however, an overabundance of the element is said to cause difficulty in choosing something and sticking to it. damn true. when i refer to myself having bouts of A.D.D., that's probably it.. ah well.. we'll see if this really is my year.. BUT! happy new year to you and your loved ones! TIMESTAMP-- Sunday, February 18, 2007, 06:17 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- TO RISSA: -- woman! i keep forgetting that anyone besides a particular circle of friends reads this thing! SO! why would i shout u out if i didn't think u were gonna read it??? HUH?? besides, i already thanked ur butt for comin to my party when u left, silly! P.S. "Did you have fun?" TIMESTAMP-- Wednesday, February 7, 2007, 04:11 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- THANK YOU -- to my awesome yakuza who bought me presents for my birthday.. last year, u guys threw me a surprise party (about 2 months late but it really made it surprise) for me.. and this year, u bought me things! (which makes me horribly guilty for not having bought a bday present in over 2 years T___T;;) take it from me, u'll like what ur getting for ur next birthdays ^^ individual shoutouts go as follows: Toki & Tai: i actually haven't tried Princess Peach yet but ur timing is impeccable since i finally beat Cooking Mama and I was getting really pissed at Elite Beat Agents. So alas! U've added the 8th game to my DS collection, which I actually really needed since i got pretty bored of the other games >___<;; additionally, i think it's kick-ass that Princess Peach finally gets her own fuckin game where she gets to save mario instead of being dragged around by a scary-lookin turtle thing whining about needing to be saved.. yay for aiding the women's liberation movement by nintendo! heart you! thanks for the awesome game that will probably suck the life out me till it's beaten Kazu!: dude, u were right. Loveless does have amazing art. And guess what, reading the raw manga has actually revived my love for learning Japanese AND!! the kanji actually has hiragana printed next to it.. so i learn more kanji XD XD XD woooo! i've been piecing together the story line slowly and i'm tempted to buy the translated manga BUT! i wanna try getting a decent understand of the whole book before i do.. i figure, it's a damn good way of brushing up on reading kana which i used to do by reading non-scanlated hentai manga X____X;; so now i can actually learn some japanese from something a lil less NC-17.. all educational purposes aside, the characters are pretty damn hot. so... that's also a big plus. thank u, sweetttieeee!! daniel!: u, as well, have a impeccable timing! i just recently got down to about $2.50 on my iTunes credit from a $15 card i got a century ago. And here you show up with a card for $25? u have saved me musical life, so to speak. Honestly, if i hear a song on TV or on the radio that I like, i go to iTunes and buy it. I have such random songs from Geico commercial songs to Journey Diamonds commercial songs (yah, i like collecting commercial songs if they catch my ear).. thanks a bunch! if u hadn't gotten me one, i woulda had to start charging my credit card for songs.. and that may have turned ugly in the end X_____X;; Jun!: imagine my surprise when i got a package from Amazon.com today. At first, i got freaked out thinking that someone had hacked into my account and bought a whole bunch of stuff.. BUT! i opened it and saw ur gift messages on the invoice and yelped in utter happiness seeing Volume 13, 14 & 15 of Battle Royale which now makes my that series complete! u are one sharp cookie, noting that I was missing those three and so thoughtful for getting them for me! yayyy now i have 3 finished manga series! the only other 2 i have are Demon Diary and FAKE...... which is actually a really sad showing -________-;; i'm a struggling otaku, what can i say? Thank you again! I've already read them all (which i did in like an hour and a half since manga is crack).. i heart you! so.. since i got these awesome things from u guys, expect something extra special for ur birthdays next year or upcoming.. additionally, i'd like to thank everyone who sent me a text message wishing me happy birthday! i wish i coulda replied back to everyone and said thanks and stuff but i think i was too incapacitated to do so.. but thank you! and also thanks to all who made it to my party! i had fun and hope u had ur fill of pasta, fruit tart and video games! thanks again for making my (as daniel put it) "coming out a vajajay day" so special, everyone! TIMESTAMP-- Saturday, February 3, 2007, 04:08 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- One Piece: Ep. 186 A DREAM.. -- it's been a long long and for that i very sincerely apologize =P this blog is really just to kill time while i'm waiting for the Elite Beat Agents Credits (this is FOREVER long) to finish.. since i just beat the second level (damn, this game is hard but as niiku-chan said, it's crack @___@) so the day i was gonna meet up with toki n tai to go out, i ended up sleeping uber late (like 8AM-ish) and having WACKED OUT dreams first off, i found out (not in my dream but in real life) that my brother's wife is expect ^^ so.. in my dream, i saw their baby. it was this cute lil pudgeball with big googly eyes and round cheeks.. i think it was girl.. nothing too fantastic about that until it started speaking.. IT SPOKE JUST LIKE AN ADULT.. and the only thing i say, being the dumbass that i am in the dream, is "WOW! YOU'RE BABY IS SO SMART!!" -_________-;; thennn.. it somehow ended up being that i was in an episode of Monk (that OCD detective sitcom) and we were investigating some crime in a building.. and i'm assuming this next part was because i saw those cupcakes that are baked in ice cream cones at the supermarket that day but.. in the dream, all of sudden, these HUGE ice cream cones were flying through the air.. and they were crashing into the buildings and destroying everything! so we're all running for cover and our lives from the falling cupcakes of doom.. and some how during that time, we found the need to eat them.. so in the midst of the insane pastry attack, we were eating our iced assailants.. i don't remember much after that aside from realizing (in my dream) that i had to call toki to make plans.. and that my phone was on silent. right after that, i woke up. weird, right? O___o but weirdly DELICOUS PWUAHAHAHAHA.. other than that, i went to VA this weekend to visit my grandparents who may be going to the philippines soon.. for good =( i'm gonna play more obscenely hard Elite Beat Agents.. teeheeeeee TIMESTAMP-- Monday, January 15, 2007, 02:29 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- it's been a while.. -- but alas! there's really only a couple of interesting happenings since then.. well, actually.. only one O___o;; dec 9th, i headed into the city to meet up w/ my cousin david for his birfday celebratory activities.. i caught the transit and got to pennstation, walked a couple of blocks and met david at his hotel where i dropped off my stuff.. the hotel was actually really nice.. two bathrooms for a 4-person room.. i've seen that before X___X;; then we attempted to cab to chinatown.. here's some solid advice: do not trust in other people that don't kno the city to pick a place to meet up.. it took us about an hour and a half to get there after heading in the wrong direction first and then the cabbie not understand our directions.. then we took a cab and eventually got to some random dimsum place.. it was okie.. not the best i've had but it wasn't bad either.. we met up with david's other friends chris and tin.. i had met chris before.. he was one of the awesome guys that came out to the gay club in DC the last time i hung with david.. anyway, they dropped their stuff off at the hotel and we rested a little before heading to dinner before our scheduled broadway.. we walked to the restaurant and met up with more of chris's friends from college who were actually living in jersey.. the restaurant we went to was pretty good.. i had a big ol steak.. oh man, i've been craving huge slabs of barely cooked meat lately X____X;; it's weird.. mebbe i'm turning into a werewolf =T off subject =P anyway.. the place was good.. we walked to the broadway theater to watch Phantom of the Opera.. honestly, it stunk. the smoke machines were broken, the actors were mediocre.. i remember liking it a lot when i was younger.. but jeez, if it wasn't terrible this time.. i was gonna fall asleep 10 minutes in AND.. the girl who played christine was anything but.. christine's voice is supposed to be that of an angel.. at first, she is naive, innocent and vulnerable and toward the end with "Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again", she is supposed to have grown into a strong-willed character having faced fear and finding love.. it was badly delivered.. most people that like very "story-like" broadways wouldn't like Phantom (as did Chris and my brother) since most of the numbers in the play are solos or choral arrangements with less emphasis on action and plot line and more emphasis on orchestral and poetic elements.. the play has some whimsical and adventurous moments.. but it's mostly an appreciation of voice and acting.. if those aren't there, the play is lost. and that was the case this time.. even the most impressive moments with special effects were ruined by the failing smoke machine the only thing i liked about it was the actual actor who played the Phantom.. his performance was the only one impressive enough to keep your attention i was very disappointed =P aright, i'm done critiquing.. so after the play, we went back to the hotel after buying a bottle of cuervo.. we pregamed a bit and chris's friend john came out.. we all headed to the Roxy for some serious dancage.. so Roxy is a gay club (or it was gay night).. and my lord.. every man in that place was absolutely gorgeous.. most were topless.. and of course grinding up on each other.. that made me pretty damn happy.. there were half-naked buff men dancing on stages and on the bars and the bartenders were topless.. it was really a sight.. of course, it was kinda sad that none of them wanted to have sex with me.. but it was still nice to watch ^^ tho Chris said that it was okay since most of the dancers at the club were probably straight which i think was true since one of the bartenders was looking at me.. (and DAMN he was hot).. shots and drinks later, i was doing good.. rocking out to Kelly Clarkson and Christina Aguilera like CRAZY.. i like going to gay clubs because it's seriously an ego boost LOL.. women apparently get a lot of attention there since we're in such minority.. i get so many random gorgeous gay men talking to me saying things like "i love her!" to our group or saying i'm cute.. it's fun XD they're so damn friendly.. and it's not like i have to be sketched by it.. so after a lonnnggg night.. we left the club around 4AM.. and we grabbed food at a diner before getting in.. passed out till the morning where me and dave caught lunch and headed back to our own places.. overall, a really fun weekend XD but i was a bit sad since i missed out on a lot: viray also had rented a room out for that night and was having dinner and going clubbing with some of the group that was there for jaz's birthday.. viray and gb called me to ask if i was coming out but the club they were going to was more uptown.. total opposite of the direction i was going in =P roxy was on 16th.. i was sad i missed out cuz they really kno how to party =( and i had so much fun the last time i spent a night in nyc with those guys secondly, ria had invited me to a party her cousin was having in boston.. it's been a while since i've been to boston and even longer since i've really partied with ria =( it woulda been awesome to go up there and just bug out.. but alas! my cousin asked me and i accepted before anyone else >___<;; then, daniel and kazuya asked me to come check out warhoulsoup (a flip band they know) in the city that night as well.. they were performing just 3-4 blocks from the hotel but the broadway ended late and by the time we got back to the hotel, it was time to leave for the club.. i really wanted to go since 1: it feels i like i haven't hung with kazu n daniel in a while 2: i love checking out local bands and this was a contest so i woulda seen a whole bunch and 3: kazu swore that warhoulsoup is such a chill group of ppl and that i should definitely come out to meet them and see them play and lastly, number 4 reason, kazu got her new tattoo and i wanted to see it T____T;; and last but definitely not least, govan called me after i got to the hotel to meet up with david asking what i was doing.. considering it's been months since i've seen her, i really wanted to come out.. they were planning to go out and do something since jordan got a new job at CBS.. so i was also sad to miss that =( *sigh* i hate turning down plans >___<;; i really do wish i could just stop time and have more to do all those things in one night =P so since then, nothing particularly interesting has happened.. the only things really worth mentioning are that i ate something funky and messed up my stomach for a couple of days.. then the weekend after, me, my parents and my brother took a roadtrip to virginia with the puppy to visit my grandparents.. then my dad left for the philippines and my brother soon followed on thursday.. he left his 360 for me.. and i'm taking care of lexi now so that's it, really.. i was supposed to go to virginia for christmas to spend it with the cousins and missa who was turning 21 but my travel plans got screwed.. and it was kinda better since my mom would have had to spend christmas alone had i went.. coming up, a party at faith's in ny, daniel's bday party/show and A GAMER'S NEW YEARS @ my house.. nuthin like some booze and video games =D i still have no idea what to do for my bday X___x;; and it's on a friday this year =P i thought about having a flippin huge party but it would mean me bumping from group to group and not paying attention to anyone in particular >__<;; *sigh* iunno =P we'll see the only other thing i have to add is that i've been reading BERSERK manga.. and i must say.. it is pretty damn good.. i was a bit disappointed by the anime but the manga has me all swept up.. so check it out XD it's bloody and there's boobs everywhere.. *yawn* aright.. well.. i'm gonna call it quits.. hopefully i can hang with faith tomorrow a lil.. and then dinner christmas dinner with my mom.. that's it! happy holidays everyone! TIMESTAMP-- Sunday, December 24, 2006, 01:44 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- BERSERK Vol. 15 i heart this song -- extremely sad, yes.. but it makes me calm. nevermind that it was the song that played during the Gears of War commercials O___o , which i am going in some serious withdrawals for.. my brother's been busy helping janne pack for the Philippines so i haven't been able to go there and co-op with him for a while >____<;; *hands itch for controller* people been asking for a wishlist, but i told the people that are getting me presents what i want already LOL.. ah, i might as well.. i'm bored anyway ^___^;; My Wishlist of DOOM: - - Resident Evil 4 (PS2) - Devil May Cry 3 (PS2) - Cars DVD - i still want the 4th Squad Bleach shoulder bag >___<;; the one that Toki has.. not just cuz it's Bleach, it's generally a nice bag.. tho i do have to sew an extra lining into it so it doesn't wear like i heard they do =T but i still want it >___< it's stylish-ish AND i get to show off how much of a geek i am - Swiss Army TearDrop Mono Sling Bag (silver).. it's pricey: $35 or the Touro in black - a link to One Piece, Death Note or Berserk scanlations =P - another set of "square pig" Monokuro Boo cellphone stickers (they had them @ Mitsuwa but i'm not sure if there are any left.. they seem to change their inventory once something runs out) um.. i can't think of anything else right now LOL let me know if ur getting me somethin and i'll exchange! nap time. TIMESTAMP-- Friday, December 8, 2006, 04:30 p.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Mad World - Michael Andrews YOU MAY HAVE NOTICED.. -- ..that my Death Note episodes are not going in order.. or you may not have (it's really not that interesting).. but i've been watching the 9 episodes i've dled over and over as a break from One Piece.. my thoughts on the series? i like it. it's not my favorite but i like it. the writer skillyfully integrated the use of intellect within a dark plot line .. a bit too dark for me. i find it interesting, yes. very. but i personally look for a lot of humor in a series. apart from the occasional smart quip here and there, this series is pretty damn somber and the angst is very deliberate.. not as angsty as say, Tokyo Underground (had to have been the most tastelessly delivered angst in all anime i've ever seen).. but Death Note can be a bit of a downer.. (obviously, hence the name "Death Note".. not exactly sunshine day =P ) i don't walk away from it feeling happy like i do One Piece or pumped like i did Bleach and Naruto (before those turned to crap) but i do walk away curious every time.. so in that respect, the series is VERY addictive.. it is, in an oddly appealing way, a spiritual and psychological mindfuck.. i'd suggest it to anyone who likes sociopaths and geniuses.. which would be most of my friends LOL so.. i forgot to blog about the Tenacious D concert.. let me say 2 things first: #1: they are AMAZING live #2: they must be high as a fackin kite while writing any of that shit i realized, at the concert that aside from maybe 5-ish songs, Tenacious D's music can really only be stomach-ache funny when you are thoroughlybaked.. it's silly, of course, which warrants a laugh for its utter preposterousness and jack black's lewd body language adds to it.. but i have a feeling they would be 1000 times more enteraining if you had just smoked a dutch, did shrooms or some other illegal substance.. the concert was fun.. we had gigantor beers and rocked out ^^ had a bit of an adventure going home (fuckin Riverline dude lied about the train schedules).. but was overall a good time fast forward to today: so after playing sudoku on my DS all night, i finally went to bed @ 9:00 AM.. i slept for a total of 2 hours before waking up to shower.. i slept just long enough to make my parents go to church without me.. then my bro and janne came over and we headed to maggiano's by the bridgewater mall for some SERIOUS foodage.. i don't wanna exhaust the description of my first meal of the day so let me say: awesome family-style italian restaurant services a shitload of awesome food.. later, we attempted to digest a bit by going shopping at the mall.. i bought a hat and my mom (of course), spent the most money.. my hat is fuzzy ^^ it feels a lot like daniel's bunny anyway, we drove back home after our lil shopping venture and me, my dad and my bro watched the Giants game.. they lost... again. -____-;; now they have extremely low chances of getting to the playoffs T_____T *sigh* and Manning was actually moving the ball this time.. >__<;; ah well.. afterwards, my bro n janne left and i watched Cars for the first time.. i really liked it.. the humor wasn't completely dependent on pop-culture references, the moral of it was simple and meaningful and its reflection of reality (racing and route 66) was something i think most americans can identify with.. overall, an awesome movie ^^ i think i'm gonna watch it again on my laptop haha.. arightee.. i'm gonna end this here.. i keep burping pesto and it's REALLY gross o_____<;; mata ashitane. TIMESTAMP-- Monday, December 4, 2006, 12:25 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Death Note Ep. 01 *YAWN* -- it's about 3:30AM.. i'm sitting in my comfy padded desk chair amidst the mess of my desk, sporting baggy black fleece pants and my grey BU hoodie.. my glasses sliding down and my hair sloppily put into some cheap hairclip i found lying around.. i had plans for tonight.. i was gonna go to kris panahon's birthday party and meet up with the yakuza there.. i barely know him but everyone insisted it was aright that i show.. i texted everyone asking when they were gonna head over.. kazu n daniel were gonna show late and i didn't hear back from anyone else until i had already gotten to the point where i didn't feel like going out anymore.. i hadn't gotten ready or even eaten anything.. so.. i ended up spending the night in.. i cooked some breakfast-for-dinner (bacon, eggs n rice), did dishes and watched House, L&O SVU and later on, Robot Chicken.. btw, One Piece was showing on cartoon network.. i had to change it, they butchered it so badly with the TERRIBLE dubbing.. not only where the voices COMPLETELY off base.. Zoro (named "Zolo" on the american version to not create confusion with the Zorro") sounded like some skinhead that drove a harley, usopp was definitely played by a 90-year-old man and sanji more or less sounded like he worked for the italian mob.. they also managed to screw up the translations from the japanese dialogue.. they turned the humor from clever and silly to slapstick and irritating... DAMN YOU CARTOON NETWORK FOR FUCKING UP MY FAVORITE SERIES BY AIRING IT WITH SHITTY VOICE ACTORS AND TRANSLATIONS.. -_________-;; moving on! ah! there was a point to this entry.. teehee as i sat contemplating in my bum-like state about whether or not to just get my ass up and go the party (jun had texted me back and she was actually going).. i made a probably-just-fleeting but still unsettling self-realization (i don't think that word is used in the right context we'll keep it.. u get the idea).. i want a boyfriend. well, maybe not a boyfriend, per say.. but a love interest? a crush? or even a recurring flirtation? i suppose i got so used to college life having an abundance of the opposite sex at my disposal.. those to fawn over, those to play around with, those to be all buddy-buddy with.. i hung out with mostly guys in college.. but now the only guys i hang out with are my female friends boyfriends.. so this poses a problem.. honestly, i contemplated going to the party tonight despite the lateness and despite being a lazy sack of shit in hopes i'd meet "a prospect".. a guy that actually sparks my interest.. or my hormones.. either one, really.. just anything =P u reach a point where u start feeling numb.. and the only time u really feel alive is when ur either piss drunk or dreaming / fantasizing.. of course, i still have fun with my friends.. but i just realized what that feeling i get the second i walk out the door is (it's almost unnoticeable.. but it's there).. it's knowing they're still with or going home to their significant other, it's the feeling that i've once again stepped out into that unfeeling cold place to ultimately be alone. i suppose the real reason i didn't get up and go to the party wasn't because i didn't want to spend time with my friends or get some drinking in since those are the times that i once again feel like a normal human being.. it was really a matter of pride.. i'm stubborn.. and i never want to admit that i'll eventually need someone else to (sorry to be so cliche) "complete me".. i've always liked being independent and i hate not having control over my emotions.. i'm actually proud to be able to detach my emotions from people and from ideas.. i always have been and i've always known it.. i suppose right now, since it's been such a long period of not having contact with men of interest in combination with me becoming more and more aware of the physical distance between me and my friends has made me quite frankly, a bit lonely. i haven't had these thoughts in a while.. but getting sick and not being able to go out with friends in fear i'd get them sick too.. being stuck at home doing nothing, it crept up on me.. not that this is the end of the world.. honestly, the second i start my social life up again, this'll all be meaningless until the next social slump i hit when i can once again write another blog entry about how "i'm sooo lonely" WAA WAA WAA BOO HOO HOO.. if ur reading this and it makes you wanna find the world's smallest violin, please understand that these bouts of momentary despair also have the same effect on me.. i also want to grab the nearest inanimate object and wack myself over the head with it so don't, by any means, take this entry as some sob story to make people feel sorry for me.. and please don't leave heartfelt, encouraging comments about how i'll find love eventually.. i've heard it many many many times before and don't need to be reminded since this entry was once again my use of this blog as a way to get my thoughts out of my head and in order for myself to see.. i did warn you that this blog is basically just my ranting. arightee.. IN CONCLUSION.. i'm lonely... for now. WOO! i'd like to close this entry by stating how awesome it is to have a 1900x1290 screen.. it makes me happy and makes me want to say something slightly childish and tech-geekish at the same time.. okay okay, i'll say it: MY LAPTOP SCREEN IS BIGGER THAN YOURS... unless, of course u have a bigger laptop or the same one as i do.. and considering it's a Dell, that may be likely..... ... ... ah, hell. whatever. owari. TIMESTAMP-- Sunday, December 3, 2006, 03:30 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Death Note Ep. 08 CAN I JUST TELL YOU.. -- that being sick REALLY sucks. everyone knows this since (dur) everyone gets sick.. but god, if it doesn't ruin your damn plans for a weekend.. i've turned down invites to go out left and right these past few days and honestly, my social life has its ups and downs.. this weekend it would have been on a serious up and up had it not been for this blasted cold.. friday: V asks me to have dinner and drinks with her and meg j in hazlet.. she texts me the next day saying i missed out on some serious drinkage =( on the same night, govan (who i haven't seen for ages) texts me asking to go to a dive bar.. i always know i'll have a blast with her so of course i'm dying to go.. fuckin cold was at its worst friday night so it was a no-go.. -_____-;; damnit!.. hrm.. i wonder if meg n V went out with govan? saturday: i was feeling much better but the cough was still there.. i decided to risk it and get out of the house for a bit by having dinner with kazu and jun.. i'm gonna feel HORRIBLE if i got them sick which might be the case.. i apologize, kazupu n jun.. i just wanted to do something this weekend and i was looking forward to girls night out.. so dinner @ wasabi house with them.. kazu got this awesome dish with salmon-stuffed fried tofu.. oh man, that was sinful.. then we wanted to watch Tenacious D: THe Pick of Destiny together but none of the showings were till around 10PM and we didn't want to wait that long.. so we went to a really old gamestop so i could look at some used games.. does anyone have a Devil May Cry 3 and a Resident Evil 4 i can borrow? i didn't start console gaming until last spring when i bought God of War .. so.. yah, i have some serious catching up to do lol so i ended up being super-cheapo and not buying anything.. i should go to gamestop.. it's prolly gonna close in like an hour tho.. buy 2 used games get one free apparently =P hrm.. so after we went to check out videogames, we parted ways.. i got a text in the store from jordan asking if i wanted to join her and fierro at metro cafe, a chic lil bar seriously 4 minutes away from my house.. but by the time i got home, i had a stuffy nose and a sinus headache.. so once again, i had to turn down plans to hang with friends i haven't seen in a while.. last night i made plans to meet up with kazu and jun @ daniel's house this afternoon and we were gonna drive up to brooklyn to go shopping at this awesome thrift store they knew of.. i haven't been to a good thrift store since the fall last year.. and let me tell you.. i need some new clothing for this winter =T i've become so dissatisfied with my warddrobe since my tastes have changed dramatically since last winter.. but of course, it was 7AM this morning and i still had not fallen asleep.. iunno what it was that was keeping me up but i swear, i was staring up at the ceiling trying to fall asleep for atleast 2 hours.. then i took some tylenol cold pm to conk out and even then, my sleep was shitty.. i kept waking up for really no reason. so when it was almost 7 and i hadn't slept with my cough and nasal congestion getting worse, i just texted kazu and told her i had to skip out on going to the shop today.. i took a big risk getting them sick last night by just having dinner with them.. and with my nose all runny and my cough, being in the car with them for over half an hour would guarantee them catching my cold.. not cool =T so.. my plans for this weekend were completely shot.. thankfully i went to dinner last night while i was feeling much better or i would half felt like a serious loser.. =P anyway, so let me recount everything else up to this point since you will then learn how i got sick.. soooo Tuesday night, i went out with tony, justine and V for some pho in the place we went to last time.. yum yum yum, talk talk talk.. yada yada.. good times ^^ they wanted to play pool the next night which i had to turn down since i already had plans to see Eden*Star's last performance.. which made me sad cuz #1: i love pool #2: the last time we went, i had a friggin blast.. so enciso missing out = sadness.. hrm.. i wonder if they really went O___o;; wednesday, met up with toki and the band at daniel's and toki n tai-face gave me a ride to the venue.. we got just a little lost and i blame it mostly on nielson following us.. he always manages to get lost =P anyway, we got to the venue and found out that the people running it were atleast 5 years younger than us.. some girl ran in screaming "I JUST GOT MY LICENSE!!"..... wow.. we felt old -______-;; so since this establishment was run by a bunch of high schoolers, we found out that the place was completely dry.. i had planned to spend the last night of Eden*Star's performance utterly SLOSHED and would probably have to pass out at daniel's place with kazu.. but... of course, there was no alcohol there so that plan went bust.. as daniel so eloquently put it: "it's Thanksgiving Eve.. everyone's out getting trashed.." yup! everyone except for us.. we were stuck in a building (literally stuck since they wouldn't let us out without having to pay for re-entry at any time except between band sets) with a bunch of emo teenagers (yes, emo.. as in tight-pants-i-dance-to-sappy-depressing-music-by- kicking-the-air-for-5-minutes-straight emo) with no alcohol since we were quite possibly the only people legal in the whole building aside from the parents standing on the side who undoubtedly brought their emo teenagers to the show.. i will declare this only once.. but its impact will stay with me for the rest of my life (not really): THANK GOD I BROUGHT MY DS.. that thing seriously made the night more enjoyable.. the yakuza were particularly entertained by BrainAge.. and friggin jun, miss genius of arithmetic, beat all of my records on it.. toki and i spent the first half hour of the night trying to get to the boss in bowzer's castle in the 5th world of new super mario but DAMNED if it wasn't hard.. after she got down to only 1 life left, i FINALLY got to bowzer but i didn't kno the little platform to fight him on was ice.. guess who fell off the edge and had a great big GAME OVER on the screen.. i swear, that game is so effing frustrating sometimes =T anywayyyy.. i played with my puppy a little (nintendogs.. yes, i have it.. and i'm actually pretty happy with it..) and then Eden*Star went on.. they did awesome as always.. i was particularly happy to here tigerlily which i now declare to be my favorite song.. it was leave your mark before which, that night, had the best levels.. the audience was receptive at that venue but the sound system was weak.. i could barely hear tai's bass and murad's riffs were coming out in pieces.. i don't think i heard nielson's snare drum at all and daniel was almost screaming since there was only one monitor and he couldn't hear himself singing.. yah, the sound system sucked but as always the guys really knew how to hype up a crowd and get em going.. as the set progressed, the sounds leveled out and sounded more like they did at the underpass which i have to give the most credit to being the best sounding venue thus far.. of course, daniel was making lewd remarks and succeeded in getting some looks from the parents standing on the side due to some of his more-than-just-suggestive hand motions.. i suppose the real shock in it was that his parents were there.. and filming! LOL anyway! fun times! they finished up with Come Tomorrow and tai and murad came off the stage into the audience with bass and guitar blaring.. daniel launched himself off the side wall a few times to build up the last few measures and tai and murad played down to the floor in a high-energy finish.. it was a great performance ^___^b i'm sad to see it end so soon so after that, tai and toki peaced out and i stuck around to wathc The Mix Tape, a band that daniel said was good.. the funniest part of the night was when one of the band members of MixTape goes "yah, it's hot up here. but i have this problem where i only sweat under my tits" and jun, who was dancing around like a silly the whole night, chimes in with "i have that problem too!" haha.. i told her she shoulda gone up there and gave him a high five.. i'm a bit of a smoker, if you haven't figured it out already.. so that means me stepping outside the building once in a while to have a smoke.. well, the policy at the friggin place was that u were allowed to set foot outside ONLY between sets.. this is about a 4 minute window when toki and i would run out of the steaming hot building and standing in the freezing cold sucking up our smokes to get back inside in time for the next band.. and GUESS WHO GOT SICK BECAUSE OF IT.. if the idiots would let some damn air into the building during sets, i wouldn't be either freezing my ass off or sweating like hell.. and there MUST have been something going around that night cuz even kazu wasn't feeling so hot the next day.. anyway.. this is the cause of all my woes.. DAMN YOU EVILE VENUE!! *cough* moving on! after THe Mix Tape, me, kazu and her cousin left since her cousin had a curfew.. we dropped her off in sayreville and headed over to applebees for some half-price appetizers XD yum.. boneless buffalo wings and nachos.. weeeeee =D yummers.. then daniel joined us shortly after and he had some wings and me and kazu shared a dessert.. then back to daniel's where we watched the video daniel's dad took and i got to play with the little white bunny daniel has.. this had to have been the friendliest bunny ever.. me, tai, toki n nielson saw her while we printed out directions before the show and she was SO into nielson.. we were joking saying that the reason why she liked him was cuz he's white like her.. called her a racist bunny.. anyway, she hopped around while we watched the tape and the cutest thing she did was she found a big red plastic cup (y'kno the beerpong cups) with water in it.. so she stuck her head inside and slowly inched her body into the cup to drink from it.. so all you see is this little white puff ball sticking out of a big red cup.. it was the cutest thing ever.. kazu took pictures LOL.. she was one thirsty bunny tho cuz she just kept on drinking.. so we all watched daniel's silly bunny drinking water.. kazu passed out while snuggling with me as usual.. then me and daniel watched some Ghost in the Shell and talked about the band while the bunny kept hopping around.. she would come onto the bed next to me and then put her tiny paws on my back.. and she would sniff u and tickle you with her whiskers.. i swear, if all bunnies were that friendly, i would get one.. i'm not allergic to her either.. so.. after that, i headed home around 1AM.. i passed out and woke up thursday to help clean the house before my brother and his wife got here.. my mom has this habit of making WAY too much food for the amount of people coming over.. we had turkey, battered shrimp, lasagna AND fillet mignon.. not to mention all the side dishes like spinach, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes and stuffing.. my GOD there was so much food.. and there were only 6 of us =T then i made brownies and we ate them with some icecream.. john had brought the puppy over.. she ran around like a little silly furry thing and fell asleep in my lap.. so they headed home.. and i told you about my friday and how i was uber sick WOO! i was supposed to go shopping with my mom at kohl's since it was black friday.. and i, once again, had problems sleeping that night.. so i had to skip out on that too! booooo =( anyway, i'm done here.. this is a long blog and i should probably eat something LOL jaa ne! TIMESTAMP-- Sunday, November 26, 2006, 04:12 p.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Death Note Ep. 02 WELL, LOOK WHO'S A.. -- ..busy little bee. that's right! ME!! WOOT! [edited @ 3:21AM] i shall title this edit Akio's Thoughts on Drinking Water: i just filled up an aquafina bottle with tap water for the 4th time since i got it.. it made me think about this weekend when i had refilled a Poland Spring bottle a bunch of times after our hardcore drinking night.. and then i really thought about it. i don't mind drinking tap water. i know some places have hard or soft water or whatever, but the tap water that comes out of the faucets here is pretty damned tasty.. when you think about it, why the hell do people spend 2 bucks on a bottle of water when they can just drink right from a sink? yes, there are less germs.. but there are also less healthful minerals that regular unfiltered water provides.. most tap water has flouride in it, thus improving dental hygiene.. and so what if there's germs? people need to start understand that the reason why the human race is so fuckin adverse to change is because WE DON'T BUILD UP A TOLERANCE TO IT. we don't drink germ-infested water so we never develop an immune system to battle it should we encounter it later.. we grew up conditioning ourselves to be vulnerable to any pathogen or harmful substance out there because of bottled water, air purifiers and over-cleanliness.. we'll marry other people with the same flawed immunity thus spurning children with even LOWER tolerances to germs.. thus accelerating the deterioration of the human race.. and THUS. the human race will end because capitalist pigs decided they wanted to scare everyone into thinking their water AND air are unsafe to drink and breathe in order to cash in BIG TIME. bottled water is one of the highest revenue earning products of most soft-drink manufacturers.. what's the point of all this? nothing. i told you. blog = ranting about pointless things. my suggestion? go roll around in some dirt so you can feel better about yourself. =P [/end of edit] so this past weekend, my parents left the house empty when they left for virginia to see my grandma who's a lil under the weather.. and i left for nyc for jazmine's birfday celebratory activites ^^ so i sped to catch a bus at 4:50 so i could get to dinner @ Le Colonial at 6:30 with everyone.. thankfully the bus was late (i got there exactly on time) but one of the other bus drivers actually offered to give me a ride into the city if the one i was waiting for didn't show soon.. it was pretty nice of him, yes.. but a bit sketch since i would have to walk to a Mcdonalds down the road and i would really be the only person on the bus WITH him O____o;; anyway, i caught the 4:50 and got into the city around 5:45 after almost falling asleep.. i was ASS tired >___<;; then to the subway after i fought my way through tourists and teeny-boppers in times square.. took the N and got to the restaurant about 4 minutes early. (*GASP* EARLY??? i know haha) there i met up with *takes deep breath*: jaz, matt chan, dennis, corrales's friend ryan, angie, steph viray, lainie, nisha, matt nicholas, jen and lastly, corrales.. jaz's roomate came later on but uh.. i forgot her name X____x;; these are all FSA heads i used to hang with all the time frosh through junior year.. all of them graduated a year or more before me.. so it's basically a huge gathering of filipinos/asians.. ate an awesome dinner with some chicken n rice n an awesome espresso dessert.. then back to Hotel W where we met up with one of my really good friends and fellow-otaku, gb.. we changed and pregamed before going out to the club. it included Stoli Vanilla n coke, that fuckin fruity-ass drink.. it's pronounced "al-eh-zay" but i have no idea how it's spelled regularly O___o and some other really fruity malt beverage.. got to club eugene via cab.. happily we didn't have to pay cover since were on a guestlist.. sadly, they confiscated my newly opened pack of cigarettes at the door.. i literally unwrapped it and smoked one while walking down the block to the club.. so it was a new fresh pack.. they took my damn lighter too the place was pretty dead when we got there around 10:30 and the drinks were EFFING expensive.. 24 for a jack&diet and a long island =P anyway, drink drink drink, dance dance dance.. i told viray my entire goddamn life story since i just can't stop talking when i'm drunk.. that and no one else was talking i was wasted. period. i drank A LOT. yes, the drinks were expensive but i got a few from some ppl.. and they were f-ing strong too.. the strangest thing that musta have happened was this woman coming up to me with this random fat balding white guy and she was like "i just have to ask you! where are you from??" and i was like "new jersey".. and she was like "nooo, are you from singapore or thailand or malaysia? i'm not sure!" after that i was like O____________o;; i told her i was filipino and she goes "ME TOO!! YAYYY!!" thenn she keeps talking to me and viray the whole time.. i dunno about what.. and the guy gives him her card.. guess what his profession was: IMMIGRATION LAW what the fuck..? WEIRD.. then we drank champagne and uh.. more alcohol X___X;; we headed out of the club around 3AM-ish since everyone was either tired, too drunk or i think hungry.. i stole some lollipops from the bathroom goodies.. and viray, who i was determined to get tanked that night, kept asking "WHERE DID WE GET THESE LOLLIPOPS?" i kept telling her "the bathroom".. and guess what.. she asked the same damn question the next day PWUAHAHHAA.. mission accomplished! so.. we headed back to the hotel via cab.. but we could find corrales anywhere since she ran off with some friends or something.. tho we called her 20 times and each took a tour around the now fuckin crowded club, we couldn't find her anywhere so we assumed she had either left or was with her friends so we bounced.. got outside.. THE FUCKIN BOUNCERS LOST MY BRAND NEW PACK OF STOGES.. they kept saying "this is it" bla bla.. i KNEW i had only smoked ONE cigarette out of the pack but lo and behold, they friggin LOST IT. so i yelled at them and said no.. so they gave me two half-full packs of STALE CIGARETTES and some shitty red lighter that was nothing like mine THAT pissed me off. so we got back to the hotel and i volunteered to stay outside since corrales had FINALLY called back.. she said she was in the bathroom despite the fact that our friend Nisha was in there screaming at the top of her lungs for her.. the problem is that corrales is mostly deaf.. as in she literally has to wear a hearing aid and she can't hear SHIT she probably also passed out in the bathroom.. so i stood out there and smoke my tasteless cigarettes but i could feel that last long island kicking in and i HAD to head back upstairs.. so.. 9 of us squeezed into the SMALLEST ROOM EVER.. i've been in some small rooms.. the room we had for Otakon 2005 was spacious compared to this room.. so.. we fit viray and jaz on the bed and there was a space for corrales in the middle.. lainie n greg slept under the desk, matt and jen had the most space and probably the most comfortable sleeping place aside from the bed.. matt slept at the foot of the bed, nisha made a make-shift cot out of an arm-chair and a deskchair and i ended up sleeping in the door hallway and UNDER nisha's make-shift cot.. nisha and ryan actually left to find corrales since she called later on and said she had waited for the club to close before going back to the hotel (news to me and matt who had stayed up waiting for her to call).. so she finally got back around 5 so we all squished..it had to have been the most awkward sleeping situation ever and i ended up waking up since it suddenly got FREEZING cold during the night and there was no cushioning on the floor.. thankfully, i had a pillow or else i would have been IMPOSSIBLE for me to fall asleep anyway, we woke up around 10:30 since we had to check out at noon.. we did pretty damn good getting ready and packing and shit in time before leaving the hotel.. jen and matt had to catch a bus early to get back to DC then we took the subway to chinatown to meet up with our friend edwin and his gf for some sunday morning dimsum.. we were all starving and i felt nauseous from mixing all that alcohol.. so after waiting like 10 minutes, we got back in and asked for like everything that passed by us on those glorious little carts.. thankfully edwin and matt spoke chinese so they did most of the ordering i swear, chinese people must all go to dimsum school we ended up eating ourselves to fullness in 20 minutes.. i gotta start learning how to appreciate the food a lil more and take my damn time but it's always that time that ur STARVING that you end up going to dimsum >___<;; anyway, that was delicious.. so we walked jaz, matt chan and gb to the fung wah and grabbed some bubble tea.. we stood outside the subway and had a long conversation about the menstrual cycle.. thus probably scaring and educating edwin at the same time.. he's still uber nice and uber hot and now uber rich.. his gf is one lucky girl =P then corrales ate something spicey in her bubbletea and spazzed out.. then me, corrales and viray caught the subway to port authority and pennstation.. i took a bus back and ended up at home around 4.. practically fell asleep on the bus that time too.. my parents got back from VA by around 9PM and we watched the Chargers bring down the Broncos.. i wasn't really rooting for anyone in particular but it was generally a good game.. so! today.. (as in, yesterday, monday) i woke up around noon and headed out to the mall with my mommy to get some choppings done.. we shared some lunch and spent some money.. it's been a while since we just done that.. then she left for her friend's place in edison and i headed home since we brought separate cars.. i had talked to my bro on gtalk earlier today and asked if i could come over for gears of war.. woot! he said yes.. so i picked them up some italian food from this great local restaurant and headed over there.. i feel terrible cuz it was john's wife's sister's birthday um.. some time recently.. and i didn't have anything for her X____X;; damn john for not reminding me.. so i watched her open her presents and we ate the food and watched some of Just friends which is a TERRIBLE movie then.. we gamed for a good.. well.. 4-5 hours again.. i'm so proud of myself that i've finally got the dual analog stick thing better.. and i've gotten used to using buttons and moving at the same time.. generally, i played pretty damn well and saved my brother's ass a whole bunch of times which is a good feeling.. i always feel bad playing like crap and pretty much letting ppl die all over the place in FPS games =P *COUGHhaloCOUGH* i have a feeling i'll still suck at HALO.. there's jumping and shit involved.. and that's a real pain =T and i've also gotten pretty good with the sniper rifle which came in handy during reconnaisance missions.. woot! XD i heart violent, killing video games then we ate some of the cake that they bought for jaymee (janne's sister).. by 1, me and my brother got to a checkpoint where we got separated and we pretty much died left and right.. so we called it quits.. i said bye to the puppy who i ended up calling "monkey" the whole night.. it kinda reminded me of how kazu calls daniel "monkey".. it's cute and endearing so it kinda just worked i hope she doesn't start responding to "monkey" instead of "lexi" X_____X;; i got home around 1:30 after my brother showed me the cool shit in his new car.. he finally decided on the Infinity G35, a nice 4-door AWD since he's a married man now =P nav, bluetooth voice dialing, xm radio, ipod compatibility and mp3 reading compact flash card slot, push-start ignition, key-proximity locks.. it can actually play videos but only when it's stopped.. kinda defeats the purpose, right? LOL it's sweet.. but it's silver.. and i kno john didn't want yet ANOTHER silver car.. =P anyway, that was my night up till now.. upcoming plans include: - pho for dinner tomorrow night with HS friends - last Eden*Star performance at bar in South Plainfield Wednesday night - Thanksgiving with the family Thursday - Janne's birthday the 28th - Tenacious D concert with tai and jun on the 29th - then another new york trip to nyc on Dec 8th for my cousin david's bday and then viray's birthday celebration on the 9th, also in nyc.. *phew* mebbe a trip to boston mid-december.. yayyy for um.. busy-ness O_____o;; aright, i'm hungry.. foodage calls, darlings.. btw, i'm not getting anyone presents for xmas.. no money = no presents =T please don't attempt to get me anything cuz i can't get you something back.. sowwie >_____<;; arightee.. raiding the fridge shall begin...... now. TIMESTAMP-- Tuesday, November 21, 2006, 01:32 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Howl's Moving Castle.. again. FANGIRL POWER!! -- aright, so i'm turning into a screaming obsessive fangirl for just a second.. [begin fangirl] i've been surfing ebay and other japanese-related paraphenalia sites looking for nice One Piece merchandise.. i've concluded that if i were intoxicated enough or somehow drugged enough to loosen my inhibitions, i would shell out the money for One Piece Portraits of Pirates figures in a heartbeat.. particularly: him (of course.. *ahem* look at my layout).. him and him.. the first and the last being priority but since i heart Ace so much, he's a damned close second.. i also failed to mention these figures run over $100 a pop.. the first one i saw of Sanji was about $149.. it makes me sad.. especially since i've seen one of these figures at the con or at some store selling for much much less but it was either Nami or Luffy.. (weird that Luffy's still on shelves).. *sigh* one day when i have money.. [/end fangirl] i'll be in the city tomorrow night for Jazmine's birthday and most likely spending the night in a hotel.. that's good cuz i plan on getting SMASHED and getting everyone else fucked up as well since the drinking level in philly last weekend went bust.. not even a slight buzz the whole time despite drinking a whole lot.. in my opinion.. philly, so far, has made the weakest drinks i've ever tasted out of all the big cities i've been to.. that's out of nyc, boston, dc AND even san diego.. we were in an irish pub and the drinks were still weak.. even the drinks they serve in bumblefuck jersey are stronger than that and HELLA cheaper (sorrie, niiku.. stole ur word).. that's when you know it's hopeless.. no wonder Justine is the queen of pregaming.. it obvious you can't get drunk when you go out there.. hrm.. it's 6AM..i should really sleep =P i'm done ranting for now.. hopefully something interesting will be blogged about by the end of this weekend.. god, i need to get laid -___-;; okay, now i'm really done. a presto. TIMESTAMP-- Saturday, November 18, 2006, 06:01 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- One Piece: Ep. 203 let's see.. -- notice anything different? no....? um -________-;; well... *COUGHnewlayoutCOUGH*......... ...... ..oh forget it. SO! just in case you haven't noticed, i now have a new layout ^^ to those new to WideOpenSpace, this is my personal blog to rant and rave about completely irrelevant things. productive, isn't it? ANYWAY.. this new layout features Sanji, my favorite One Piece character. I thought the fanart was just beautiful. and it just screamed "layout".. so.. here it is! aright, some admin to get out of the way first: To view layout description and my new profile, click on the top 1 of those 3 squares outside this window on the bottom right.. to view links and archives, click on the middle square.. and to make that section disappear entirely, click the bottom square.. it's really not as hard as it seems and it took entirely too many words to explain something so trivial.. but unfortunately, Firefox doesn't read ALT= labels.. so even though you SHOULD get a description when you put ur mouse over it, it doesn't should you be using Firefox.. if you are using Internet Explorer, CONGRATULATIONS!! you are now seeing my more attractive layout.. with the colored/customized scrollbars and the ALT labels as previously mentioned.. *sigh* FF really needs to get with it =T ADDITIONALLY! it may be a bit hard to read some of my entries due to that huge black paint splotch.. TOUGH LUCK GUYS! i decided to sacrifice functionality for aesthetics this time.. just hit CTRL-A if you're really having a hard time of it =P ah and if u read my layout description, I kinda lied about not referencing a song in this layout.. my window title, date&time stamp and comment box caption are from a NIN song called Right Where It Belongs.. i couldn't help it >____<;; i heart NIN.. um.. that's it haha i have 3 other things to blog about.. THANK YOU GHOSTO for tipping the iceberg as far as naming my DS.. Ploutos it is.. thank you, Tai n Toki.. as always, i can depend on you to reply *group hug* SECONDLY, I was watching Law&Order the other night.. Ellen Pompeo, the completely unattractive woman who plays Dr. Grey in Grey's Anatomy was in it.. she played some crazy teenager who staged a robber and hired someone to kill her mother.. anyway... from watching that episode & the few Grey's anatomy episodes i've seen i have conclude this: THIS WOMAN CANNOT ACT. she seriously DESTROYED that episode.. she made everything good about it worthless with her horrible shitty acting.. I always wondered why I hated her guts when i watched Grey's Anatomy.. i realized.. it's cuz she sucks. PERIOD. and lastly, i spent 4 hours playing Gears of War with my brother the other night.. i actually only came over to pick up my DS cover (which i hate and actually am not using =P) AND LO AND BEHOLD.. there he was playing the most anticipated game of the year.. tho.. honestly, i didn't know about it aside from the 10-second commercials with the awesome song from the Donnie Darko soundtrack.. it wasn't until i was up at 4AM surfing cable channels and landed on a show ABOUT Gears of War.. the game, the developers, the promotions and the premiere... weird coincidence that i would end up playing the game the next day, huh? at any rate, my brother and i played CO-OP on HARDCORE level.. i got a slight ego boost when he needed my help to kill the final boss in CASUAL mode since i SERIOUSLY suck at first-person shooter games.. my crappy performance when playing Halo with Ed n Janina in Philly can attest to that.. i even sucked at the GoldenEye games.. hrm.. i'm tempted to go there tomorrow n play again X___X;; then i can spend time with the puppy and get some game time in XD woot! arightee.. i'm done for now.. leave a message, darlings and lemme know what u think of el bloggo del doom-o. pwuahahaha.. a presto. ("till later") P.S. i REALLY want some hot wings right now X_____x;; TIMESTAMP-- Friday, November 17, 2006, 01:14 a.m.. CURRENT MEDIA-- Live It Up - John Legend |
